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i don't know how but i still get scared that you don't love me as much as i love you
i know you're right
all of the time
i miss
when you were mine
i don't care
about these planes up in the air
i just want you back down
i just want you here
i could blame myself
or i could blame the whole wide world
because our cells were meant to meet
your cells are dear to me
and i still get scared that maybe you don't miss me
i don't about this
as much as you wanted
i just think about death
need to rest my head
i don't care
i just want you here
i don't care
i just want you here
i don't care about this
as much as you couldn't
i just think about kids
how they're growing up to this
i don't care
i just want you here
i don't care
i just want you here
please don't let me be right
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2. |
autumn
03:38
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nothing like an autumn afternoon
to sit around and think of you
nothing like a song that brings me back
to when we first met and all the days passed
i haven't felt the same about anyone
since i looked into your eyes
i haven't felt the same about anything
since you took me by surprise
but it's been two long years of trying to forget
two long years of living with regret
it's been too many months since the last time we spoke
too many times i tried but I chocked
too many songs that i've written for you
too many times i wished it came true
too many chances i could've held your hand
too many thoughts i'll never understand
about you, about you
i write these for you, for you
it's not like the sun doesn't shine
i just still wish you were mine
and i've been trying to move along
you were right but you were oh so wrong
and it was around this season
that i fell head over heels
and it was for this reason
that i forgot how to feel
but it's been two long years that i'll never get back
two long years that i'll never have
too many people that'll never fill your shoes
too many conversations i'm trying not to lose
too many words that i've written and thrown out
too much silence that was always so loud
too many times you've been in my dreams
too many memories I wish I could repeat
i loved you, i loved you
i write these for you, i love you
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3. |
loser
02:18
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everything that is lost
will turn to dirt
that we walk
until we hit the earth
shaky knees clenched fists
i’ll miss you with my dying breath
shaky knees clenched fists
i’ll miss you and your cigarettes
i am losing you
your body becomes the dirt
where the lilacs will bloom
i didn’t think this would hurt
shaky knees clenched fists
i’ll miss you with my dying breath
shaky knees clenched fists
i’ll miss you and your cigarettes
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4. |
yr kind of cool
02:19
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5. |
skeleton
02:56
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i've got holes in every pair of shoes i own
i know less now than i've ever known
i'm not praying but oh god i'm all alone
i'm a skeleton but i've lost all my bones
and i i'm not worthless but i'm worth less than i
want not self-conscious but i'm conscious that i'm
not what i want to be who i want to be
and i i am fixing that i'm fixing me
i have a nervous system that always breaks down
i'm worried i'm the only one left around
i'm the rightful owner of a paper crown
i want to be the stars but i'm lying on the ground
and i i'm not worthless but i'm worth less than i
want not self-conscious but i'm conscious that i'm
not what i want to be who i want to be
and i i am fixing that i'm fixing me
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6. |
literary reference
03:17
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i know that none of this really matters
i’ll play alice, you’ll play the mad hatter
you look at me from across the train car
i’m falling down rabbit holes in the dark
i know that none of this really matters
i’ll play alice, you’ll play the mad hatter
i look at you from across the train car
you dig holes for me to fall into in the park
i’ll play the queen, you’ll play the flamingoes
i’ll be alone forever ‘cause that’s just how it goes
i think i forgot how to play my cards
cheshire cat don’t rip me apart
i know that none of this really matters
i’ll play alice, you’ll play the mad hater
you look at me from across the train car
i’m falling down rabbit holes in the dark
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7. |
how r u doing
02:53
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i’m not going to come home
probably moving to san francisco
where i grew up as a tree
long long ago
i’m not going to come back
because leaving makes me sad
and i don’t want you to see me cry
i’ve always been stronger than that
and i want to know how you’re doing
i want to know how you’ve been
i want to know if you’ve missed me
and if you’ve been able to sleep since i’ve been gone
i’m so sorry that i’m leaving
everything is happening so abruptly
and i know right now we’re together
i hope i like it in new york city
and i want to know how you’re doing
i want to know how you’ve been
i want to know if you’ve missed me
and i haven’t been able to sleep since i’ve been gone
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8. |
i survived 5/16
03:19
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can’t you for a second just chill out?
listen to the sound of the raindrops bounce
on the sidewalk outside of your house
i heard she’s onto worse things now
i heard you were trying to save yourself
i just came around to see if you want help
can’t you for a second just stare at the sun?
your eyes were made burn while your skin is still young
as young as the trees growing in the backyard
where i buried my stupid plastic heart
i heard you were trying to save yourself
i just came around to see if you want help
i made a home in your clothes
ruined it with blood from my nose
i made a home in your clothes
ruined it with blood from my nose
i made a home in your clothes
ruined it with blood from my nose
i made a home in your clothes
ruined it with blood from my nose
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9. |
i hate my job
01:49
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i want to quit my job but i don't want to be broke
i want to run away but i still want to go home
i want to take shorter showers but i'm cold everywhere else
i don't want to hate my brother but i still hate myself
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10. |
i might be crazy
01:08
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sorry i'm just in a really weird place right now
i’m an emotional disaster
and i’m in love with a boy
and i think about him too much
and i really miss detroit
even though i’m not from there
but i’ve got family ties
i hope he’s thinking about me
as he’s driving around at night
and i don’t want to be in love
but i don’t want to be alone
i just hope i find my keys
so that i can go back home
i know my parents love me
they’re just disappointed
that i smoke cigarettes
when i said that i wouldn’t
and i might be crazy
but everybody is
and i might be crazy
but i’m in love with him
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11. |
no we're not dating
02:55
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when you say my name, do you hear her voice?
when you say my name, do you miss her even more?
when you say my name, can you feel her skin?
as you try your best to hold my hand
and you are your ex-girlfriend’s ex-boyfriend
and you are your next girlfriend’s next boyfriend
we are just passing the time
so do you want to hang out with me tonight?
when you say my name, it’s temporary
when you say my name, do you feel less lonely?
when you say my name, can you hear my sighs
because you think that i’m yours and you are mine
and you are your ex-girlfriend’s ex-boyfriend
and you are your next girlfriend’s next boyfriend
we are just passing the time
so do you want to hang out with me tonight?
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12. |
for jared
02:10
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you're still the one that i want
half past 12 conversations, haven't talked much since last vacation
fell too hard for a boy in a sweater, you say well it'll sure get better
and i'm not sure i want it to, cuz i like how this feels with you
when i have problems and you have time, and you need drugs and i need wine
and i know that this isn't love, but hell well it's good enough
i will say, i'll love you to the grave
i will say, everything like
you're still the one that i want
morning after she broke your heart, said it was the last you'd fall apart
fell too hard for a girl with issues, i say well one day she'll miss you
you're not sure you want her to, because you like the way she loves you
and you have problems and i've got time, you're making mistakes and i'm making mine
and i know that this isn't love, but hell well it's good enough
i will say, i'll love you to the grave
i will say, everything like
you're still the one that i want
you're still the one that i want
you're still the one that i want
you're still the one that i want
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13. |
u r my home
03:11
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you called me your home
i said “please don’t leave me alone”
cuz the headlights are too bright
at night, for my eyes
when i drive from your bed to mine
the city is too big
growing distance
you said you fucking love me to bits
and you called me your home
i feel your existence in my own
i’m holding your heart i won’t let go
i’d give anything for tomorrow
to slow down so it’s right now
so that i’m still around
i want to save you from this bad town
and september is too long
you’re my favorite song
i said “you’ll always be the only one”
and you called me your home
i said “please don’t leave me alone”
i can’t do this on my own
i’m too afraid of my own shadow
you called me your home
and you are my home
you called me your home
and you are my home
and you called me your home
and you are my home
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14. |
i didn't die
02:28
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yesterday i asked a waiter "how are you" and all he could say was "depression. clinical." and all i could say was "prozac." and then i high fived him.
don't let me go like you let the trigger go
i told him "i can sell of my prozac if you want." and he laughed. and i went home. and i didn't die. i didn't die.
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15. |
u r not my father
02:57
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you said i should go home
back to where i came from
there’s some things i’ll never know
like why you always leave when it snows
you remind me of my father when you’re mad
you don’t seem like the type
to think about me at night
i’m sick every time
i’m sick and i’m alright
you remind me of my father when you’re mad
i will stop losing you in parking lots like i always do
i will stop kissing you in your room in your room
i will stop losing you in shopping malls like i always do
i will stop kissing you in your room in your room
i will stop losing you at my house like i always do
i will stop kissing you in your room in your room
i will stop losing you when i turn around like i always do
i will stop kissing you when i don’t want to when i don’t want to
you remind me of my father when you’re mad
you remind me of my father when you’re mad
you remind me of my father when you’re mad
you remind me of my father when you’re mad
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i don't want to go outside
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17. |
dear kids
02:55
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take drugs so you don’t feel like this
this is a letter to my future kids
who probably hate me like i did
who probably hate me like i did
stay out all night just to feel alive
don’t forget to wash away all of your lies
you are all of my mistakes
you are never to blame
the only permanent thing is that everything is temporary
you’re gonna be a ghost someday
the only permanent thing is that everything is temporary
you’re gonna be a ghost someday
the only permanent thing is that everything is temporary
you’re gonna be a ghost someday
the only permanent thing is that everything is so fucking scary
you’re gonna be a ghost someday
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eve
02:30
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i am starting to admit
i’m weaker than the rest
i’m weaker than the rest
eve don’t hesitate
eve don’t trust the snake
eve i’ve made the same mistakes
i’m punching holes through walls
don’t call me beautiful
i want to be something more
eve don’t hesitate
eve don’t trust the snake
you are an artist and i am a fake
you are an artist and i am a fake
you are an artist and i am a fake
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